MOMMAHOLLI'S MEDITATIONS

picking it up from where we left it...

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tue. 14 february 2017  1a

my best friend of twenty yrs. is ,so far, the only team member

who has confronted me with the idea that i just might be

mismanaging the symptoms of this dis-ease.    :(

my friendship with her has outgrown the need for

her to guide and protect me.

i can tell we both want to keep this alive, strong and healthy.

we seem to be stepping up and around new levels of comradship

if i could just keep my spiritual shoelaces

untangled from hers we'd be able to skip right along.

as it is 

i get the feeling we both need to do

 better with keeping our shoelaces tied!!

as a 60+ y.o. lesbian grandmother

who is so rich in life experience

i know very little about self care practices.

as i've previously stated  in a social media post

all this is NOT meant to be the ravings of

a psychotic, self absorbed lunatic

[although i DO qualify for that]

through experience, observation and assessment

i'm quick to notice self absorbed people 

and how wrapped up in themselves they are,,,

just a conclusion here...

but it seems those wrapped up in themselves make for a small kind of package.

by contrast

when we're being self-"centered" 

it has more to do with HAVING   healthy self esteem,

healthy self respect...

those who are truly self-"centered"

radiate a life supporting     light! ♥

my bio-chemical need for light  

[daylight to be specific]

comes from 

and goes to...

the very core of my being.

once again i will vocalize

how thoroughly i've been convinced

of the masses who share this need....

and by "share" i don't mean the simple give and take stuff we do with each other.

that's what keeps our spirits moving,

it's more like a give and   "keep" sequence we're playin!!

[even when we AREN'T]

we need to keep our balance and

THAT may not be as easy as it looks.

historical wisdom states

" you can't keep what you've got, unless you give it away  ♥

there a lot of folks out here that don't recognize the difference

between karma and dharma....

karma is what we attract into our sphere

and dharma is what we send out from our sphere.

during this particular lifetime

i feel like i've been given so much,

learned so much, lived so much...

but i worry about oliver??

one of my younger fragments...

he gets confused so easily?? :

if we let him lose now

there won't be any way to contain 

the critical lock boxes

that hold our history/documents  

and identifying objects ♥

one of the most critical aspects of my journey, so far, 

has been my gift of words and how i use that gift ♥

 the intense  desire i have to 

 educate those around me

is the driving force behind my recovery

i'm feeling like i've gotten where i wanted to go....

i just don't remember when, where and what i left behind?

and i got here faster than i thought i would!

hhhhmmmmmm......

time to shut it all down - - just long enough for a nap.

i'll buzz you back in for page 5